Tag Archives: recovery

How I’m returning to chess

Posted on June 27, 2023 by Bullfrogr

My experience with chess after 10 years of not playing.

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Am I healthy? (a rant)

Posted on August 4, 2019 by Bullfrogr

In short: I’m not. Sometimes I’m having depressive and manic episodes. I also have bad memory and low social skills, some awkwardness. I experience troubles in planning and arranging things, fulfilling some tasks, studying new things. I easily get tired. … Continue reading →

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Smth ordinary

Posted on July 30, 2019 by Bullfrogr

Several times people just told me “you haven’t discovered anything new”. As clearly the magical meaning of “everything backwards” was already told by Crowley. The cruel essence of religion was discovered mostly by atheists, so there’s no surprise in “improper” … Continue reading →

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My gothic poems

Posted on July 14, 2019 by Bullfrogr

Some of my poems written in English. I will recite some of my poems translated from Russian too – when I have time. I’m planning several videos – maybe even reciting everything. I won’t hurry – I have not so … Continue reading →

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I didn’t want to write it, but I will

Posted on April 4, 2019 by Bullfrogr

Just to think, some followers read me perplexed: what is this all for? Such meaningless talks with my grand ideas… 😀 You may perceive it as a beginning of something great, but it’s not. Don’t expect much from a psycho. … Continue reading →

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I’m learning to cook again! (just sharin joy!)

Posted on March 11, 2019 by Bullfrogr

I used to cook in a microwave oven mostly, when I was young and lived far away from home. Now I’m learning more traditional cooking, using a gas oven. I’ve already managed to make my favourite dishes: chicken tabaka, fried … Continue reading →

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I need a healthier life…

Posted on February 28, 2019 by Bullfrogr

Had a nightmare that I was discovered by crowds. Then I recalled in a dream that I’m just a lone psycho with almost no memory and mental activity exhaustion, then some old friends appeared and I felt more sick than … Continue reading →

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Have I got any results, really…

Posted on December 30, 2018 by Bullfrogr

I’ve been thinking, how pathetic I had been in 2015… and how little I feel now. I got cold. I thought I was striving against social injustice by showing my vulnerable side… but I gained nothing in the end. Just … Continue reading →

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Where do I go from here?

Posted on October 20, 2018 by Bullfrogr

In spring of this year, when I first started to realize that my life is not what it seems, I used to make harsh statements and did some mental programming that seemed to have led to results… I used to … Continue reading →

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Do I have a right to be “psychotic”?

Posted on October 5, 2018 by Bullfrogr

Considering that my blog vastly changed since May 2018, you may ask – what is it getting to? Will I be psychotic for the rest of my life? Am I creating a sect or trying to catch attention?   I … Continue reading →

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